Pre morning thoughts

It is known fact that when you're in trouble or tense, your butt clenches automatically. And when you're released from this haphazard, it unclenches. Weirdly enough, my butt is clenched half the time. So does that mean I'm stressed half the time?
I do take a lot of tension. And recently I've been taking a lot of it. Coz every single thing I do, I've began to doubt myself. Like, maybe this is my mistake. I must've done something wrong. ( Louise Hay where are you!) I know I shouldn't self doubt so much. My performance is decreasing because of it. But how can I not? I'm making freaking silly mistakes.
I wish I could go back and have the same self confidence I had 3 years back. Man, I rocked! But now what?
And u really don't like being teased. A little bit is fine. But In my perspective, teasing is a way of gathering someone's attention. You try to peek into someone's life and revert back at them? It seems senseless to me. And I don't do that to people. But somehow the topic just lands up on me. And I just can't seem to handle it well. I don't have a lot of experience speaking to people. So it's a little to hard. I wish it wasn't. I wish I was bad mouthed sometimes so that I could atleast protect my self respect.
It's been a long night. And I've been through a lot. Or so it would seem. Night world. Or morning it is?