Friday 4 September 2020

bane of very being

 Struggle. Struggle through failure of your person, of your family, of the situation you are in and your surroundings. Struggle, and you will get through life. 

I will. But tell me first - is it worth it? 

How do people get to where they are in life? Ofcourse it wasn't easy, and I don't know you. And there too many microscopic differences between any two lives. So how do I draw my life looking at yours? 

I see your mistakes and it is obvious to say, "don't make the mistakes I did, learn from them". But if, even if I did make the same mistake, I am in different path of life, these are different people associated with it, I am not you! Maybe it will or will not teach me a different lesson as it did to you. 

So all these non-fiction, autobiographies, self help books that are being sold to me, how are they helping me? How am I to learn about another and construct my life? rectify my mistakes?  Direct myself?

And if it is all pointless, why do we push ourselves so hard? Why am I struggling to keep up? Anxiety helps, but I don't need it! The standards set where I would be judged by the set of people I know, are they important to be achieved? 

Tell me is it necessary getting the social attribution? Why are we contributing to the society? If only to live in harmony, they why do I not feel harmonious within?