About me

I don't know where to start.
OK so to start with, I say "I don't know" a lot. I have no long term goal, I kinda go with the flow. I do have a dream though. Which may or may not come true. I am a firm believer in -  if you deserve it, you'll get there(just not in my case. And that's the reason  why I'm upset most of the time.) I'm a nice person, On the outside. On the inside I may vary. (I'm saying so coz I'm actually sick of being called nice) I don't hate anybody. I just don't care. I'm that kind of person to whom if you'd say fuck off, I won't say anything to you. Mostly coz I don't know how to reply. I don't say the f word. (I do, in my mind and when I write, like right now ) Sea faces make me sad. I have a slight idea but it's a long concept. I love the color black. I wanna have number of boots. And also average boobs (I don't think that's gonna happen) and I wanna have good number of books. Phew! Triple B's I want. Ok so I'd decided since id started earning a little, I'll buy a pair of shoes, a branded dress and a book from my each months salary. I wanna have a walk in closet and my own  library someday. Ok so this sounds like my wish list.
I usually like making first impressions and new starts I love organizing stuff. I love dogs. And I hate my hair. I used to be a football freak. Now I'm just a girl who knows to play football and used fangirl. I like being quiet. I am comfortable with super quiet too. I like surrounding myself with people with good sense of humour. Well, I don't have it but I wish I did. And I like people who are everyone's favourite ( I still ha e to R&D why it is so). I prefer guys company over girls but I'm mostly comfortable with a girls company. I don't have a best friend. I have number of close friends and a cousin sister. I love my dad the most and my mom's cool. I never seem to be OK saying goodbye. Idk I just don't like saying it or maybe I know I'm gonna meet this person again. Or maybe I bid goodbye to only those people who I'd miss when I'm gone. Sleeping, bathing and reading are like my hobbies. I don't like to gloat but I don't like it when people don't give credit whenever needed.
So, now I'm going on and on. I don't now where to stop. Alright. I believe that it all turns out alright in the end and you're a piece of a puzzle. You'll fit. Someday. I don't believe in love. At least not yet. We'll see when it happens. I have a lot of crushes and one direction boys are top 4 of them. ( Harry styles  *drools*)
I love good food and I'd go out and food explore. But I don't wanna spend unnecessary money. I want a lot of things, but I'm also ok getting the ones I need. I have a poetry blog and I write lyrics. No I don't know to play any instrument. I'm a sporty person. Love running and jumping. Trekking. Music, mostly retro. TV series are life, The  English kind. I like watching chick flicks whenever I'm sad. My ideal date would be, in the bed, with popcorn or chicken nuggets (I don't mind any other food too) and watching movies or TV series (anything is fine by me).  I may have a one track mind but I'd like to think I don't. I do judge people. And I like them for their whatevers. There are some people that matter to me most ( currently). I love late night talks or chats. I like it when I'm adored. I don't like it when I'm teased. I try to navigate back to why I had this dream.
And I seriously don't know when to stop. I feel ashamed a lot. I feel guilt the longest. I like to show that I don't care even when I do. I like breeze on my face. And I do want to dance in the rain and kiss someone I love and run wildly in an open Field. And I want to be somebody. Someone. I like being different. And sometimes I cry because I am. I may not be the smartest but I am so not dumb. I do want to turn dreams into reality. But I don't know how to. And I really don't talk as much as I write. And I'm afraid if someone I know reads this, they might think of me as weird and stupid but well, I don't care. I try not to. Ok I'm stopping here. Peace out!