In the light of spirit

I watch a lot of anime. I'm not even denying. I've watched more than 800 episodes of one piece in less than 3 months. And I don't even regret it. Fictional or not, there are some things that you still hold on to.

Roronoa Zoro, maybe a fictional crush of mine. Or someone I'd admire to be. Well, please include that points for, 'I totally have a thing for guys with swords ' (#makesselfblush) But the courage and determination that this show possesses is way beyond limit. And Zoro though being a green haired weird character, is still my favourite.

Ever think that even though the characters are fictional, the personality created is so strong? Hats off to the writers who have ever created something to leave a mark in someone else's life.

Well I'm here to talk about Zoro, and how I admire him. Taking responsibility, constantly training. Although he may not be a smart person (that I can handle about myself) He is so adamant and honourable that you just can't ignore his spirit.

I want to be someone like that. I want to be at least remotely something like that. Spirit. That's something, isn't it? Spirit of life. Spirit to prove oneself. Never back down. To be braver than you even think you are. To walk into a battle with a smile. And to hone your talents so sharply that when you come across your opportunity, are ready for a fierce battle.

I'm not going into a battle, FYI. But these characters have a story, they have a life. And I think they could be smarter knowing how to lead a life better than us sometimes.

Below are some of the Zoro quotes I found on internet which inspired me to write all of this-

Source: https://m.ranker.com/list/best-roronoa-zoro-quotes/ranker-anime

"When I decided to follow my dream, I had already discarded my life."

"So what if you're a girl."

"I don't care what the society says. I've Never regretted doing anything. I will survive and do what I want to."

"I don't know. I'm not sure why myself. But if I were to take even one step back, I believe that all those important oaths, promises and many other deals 'til now, will all go to waste and I'll never be able to return before you, ever again."

"You need to accept the fact that you're not the best and have all the will to strive to be better than anyone you face."

"When the world shoves you around, you just gotta stand up and shove back. It's not like somebody's gonna save you if you start babbling excuses."

"Only those who have suffered long, can see the light within the shadows"

"So, are you stupid enough to fall for such a stupid trap that such stupid people set up?"

"If I can't even protect my captain's dream, then whatever ambition I have is nothing but talk..."

"When you decided to go to the sea, it was your own decision. Whatever happens to you on the sea, it depends on what you've done! Don't blame others!!"

"You've underestimated me, snow woman. When you thought you couldn't beat me, you should have run. Of course, there are things that I don't wanna cut. But... let me ask you something. Have you ever seen a fierce animal you were sure would never bite? Because I haven't."

"There is someone that I must meet again. And until that day...not even Death itself can take my life away!"

"Well, how about this. My "luck" versus this thing's "curse". Wanna see what's stronger..? If I lose, then I'm just that much of a man anyways..."

"You want to kill me? You couldn't even kill my boredom!"

"I'm going to be the world's greatest swordsman! All I have left is my destiny! My name may be infamous...but it's gonna shake the world!!!"

"If I die here, then I'm a man that could only make it this far."

"Being strong isn't just about having power or move, it about one's spirit"

"A wound that'd make an ordinary man unconscious... I won't lose to it. A wound that would kill an ordinary person... I won't lose to it! To face one who is extraordinary, ... I can't allow myself to be ordinary!"

"I do things my own way! So don't give me any lip about it!"

"Either in belief or doubt, if I lean to one of these sides, my reaction time will be dulled if my heart thinks the opposite of what I choose."

"You sure can talk the talk, but you're not quite ready to walk the walk. Time's up, it's my turn."

"I am always serious."

"Bring on the hardship. It's preferred in a path of carnage."

"You'll never understand...your swords will never be as heavy as mine!"

"If you do anything that would cause me to abandon my ambitions... You will end your own life on my sword!"

Commitment issues

Why is it so hard for me to commit to something. Anything. I can't even commit to writing once a month. Let alone everyday. I can't commit to working out 7 days a week, let alone 31 days. I can't commit to read a page a day, let alone finish a book.

Why is this hard?

I am not even committed to solving my problems! I just let go if it gets too difficult. And I let it pass with time. Maybe a time will come when this will all change? Or I hope it does.

How does this work? They say 21 days doing something, may turn it into a habit. I've been keeping track. Well more like noticed. You can't keep track of something that happens rarely. I guess? Well, I've noticed I can't do anything more prolonged than 7 days straight. Wonder why is that.

Any thoughts?

One good thing

I've been through a lot, and when I say a lot, I mean -freaking lot- this week. It has been full of surprising disappointments, instantaneous decisions, on the verge of crying, to hating all the people you know. I've learnt so much about myself that I can't even explain.

But all things aside, I've been moping around for 3 days. But I made an instant decision today. One decision. And when the day was over, suddenly all the problems I've faced didn't make any dent. I was brand new again.

Just wanted to say, one good thing wiped out all the sadness. I hope this feeling lasts longer than I hope.

Legos Anybody?

Soulmates. You don't believe in?

Is it because I believe in the concept, I am so sad? Or it is something else?

Imagine you are a 3D pictured lego structure. Still unfinished. Not even halfway there. But with all your colors and edges, you are one of the Lego structures I can bet be worth something when you are complete. And there's not just you. There are many others like you, trying to complete themselves. Pieces have been coming together, forming pictures. But you are still searching for your missing pieces. You see people around finding theirs, almost completing. And you can see how good they look put together. Like they were meant to be. But at the back of your mind, you are still searching for your missing pieces.

Maybe your missing pieces aren't there at all? Maybe you are mistaken that every Lego picture has to be completed. Maybe time might run through and you may never find them even if they are somewhere. What if they are trying to put themselves together too, and trying to find you. Hope fate help you find yours.

But I'm in this constant search. And what if I've had my missing pieces right in front of me and I don't recognize them? What if pieces I pick aren't mine and we are not complete still.

Why do we even go through this. *Getting too emotional now* But seriously though.

You know it's not just Legos I'm talking about right?

Resolutions

Well, another new year is here. What else is new around? Umm my hair maybe. Oh yeah.

But I really need to stop doing things that I don't wanna do. Like I did not want to go Goa somehow. I mean it never turns out bad, coz you learn to survive almost everything life throws your way. But doesn't mean you should hurt meaninglessly for happiness or silliest reasons of others. I need to start taking decisions based on my gut. I mean I do already, but small decisions. I still let my family take decisions for me. But hopefully it will be different from now on. And say what I want to say. I mean there is a difference in saying what you really want and speaking nonsense. So yeah, that is on my list as well.

Also another thing I need to do I eat well. Eating disorder is really a downer. And exercise damn it!

And one more thing I need to post on my wall right in front of my bed, so that I can see it as I open my eyes- Get your ass off.

And write. Write like never before. Not to be scared or judgemental about it. Just do what you feel like. Write what uiu feel like.

And be kind, like always. That is it I guess.