Sleep deprived

Now I've been awake since yesterday. It's 4am. And as much I'd like to sleep, there's one though constantly nagging my mind.

"I have to wake up at 5am"

How did this happen?

Well, I had 2nd shift, ie 2.30pm to 11pm IST. and I have freaking shift change from the next day, 6.30am to 3pm.
Freaking fucking life.
Now I've been sleep deprived and I'd be more tomorrow. But I'm trying to rack my brain for things to do tomorrow, things to buy tomorrow or thinking of some happy thoughts.

I've been thinking about what I want.

I want to be friends with people here. I want to go out and find new friends. I want to explore the city, learn their language (a little maybe) I want to be better at everything I do. I want to exercise and be fit while breathing fresh air. I want to vent to a friend about how I feel. I want freedom, and at the same time I want to be loved. I don't want to take it. I want to deserve it. New books, new shoes, new dress and new people. In all, new me.

I have a feeling ill go through this sleeplessness again. But I hope I'm this calm and I fare well tomorrow. Sleep, I love you! I'll meet you soon.