Well, I've been unemployed for like 10 working days now. And I'm already in overhead of finding my next job. As difficult it is for me to find, simultaneously I'm not so sure what exactly it is that I want to do. What do I really want to do?
I've been looking at the courses and their fees structure and rethinking again. I want to learn. But I want to apply what I learn. I guess I've picked this fear over engineering that I've done and my previous. There was absolutely no co-relation. I don't want to continue the same! What I want is a fixed goal. I want to learn and work hard and smart and apply myself. Prove it to myself.
What I want to is to be a master of my own fate.
Have you ever felt like everytime you do something or achieve something or go through something, ever get a feeling that you've not given your all? Like you could've done even better if you'd just tried. I've felt like this always. And I have no idea what I'd do with it. Maybe o could do something off of it. But I know I'd forget all about it a soon as I get a stupid new job. And I start earning basic money again. But I don't want that originally. I want to do something that when I do it, each and everyday I'll prove to myself that I'm worth.
Well, that is me currently.
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