No I'm not talking about the tv show. I was into all of that when I was 6. No. This is me describing myself how I feel about myself every other day. I'm dumb today, I'll be dumber tomorrow. And today being one of the days I experienced it and I'm gonna write it down and maybe try to make myself feel better by arguing how it's not so bad.
OK so ever get the feeling that you're getting dumber day by day? I've been getting the same these years. Although I've been pouring knowledge like it's from an endless source, I feel like I'm loosing my common sense. Which is highly necessary in my opinion. I've been living life like I'm a smart person. Which I'm not. But the belief and the confidence can do you lots. And today I made the mistake of showing people that I'm smart maybe by mistake itself. (that's what I think they think) anyway. But I realise, I maybe smart by mistake but I have courage to make them. And by making mistakes you understand where you stand. It's like surveying the ground, you find garbage and shit but you may find something that you might need some day or something actually useful that nobody thought they'd find it this way. Maybe once you found crap when people were watching but it won't be that all the time. Plus, why does that matter? Firstly it shouldn't matter what people think. I just shouldn't. They don't know you or the shit you've been through. Secondly, if your habits do you good, you shouldn't be ashamed.
I've had a way myself.. I stumble across things. And I feel like an idiot to accept that. That's what happened and that's what I've been trying to put through.
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