Pushover

How do you take life decisions?

I'm in a mess right now. I'm stressing over things that have happened, are about to happen and are happening. I know what kind of life I want. I want a laid back life where I earn a  fixed income, growing at a substantial rate though and buy the things I need and save for the dreams that matter. Now if someone tells me you have to work hard for the life you want is going to get a knife in their gut because that is an unacceptable answer.

I want an easier life. A simple life. Life where what I want is in my reach. Where my goals don't seem too unreal. And I believe it is possible.

Up until now all I have been is a pushover. Although I sought this term from friends tv series, but I can relate to it deeply. I've gone where the wind would take me. But is it such a bad thing? I want a simple life so what's wrong with being a pushover?